Logan Edwards used to escape the nightmares, flashbacks and anxiety associated with post-traumatic stress disorder by passing out drunk just to start the day over again. The cycle found the 27-year-old U.S. Marine from Davenport in and out of rehab and racking up a handful of drunken driving convictions.
He turned to prescription drugs. But the side effects made him feel more anxious, more suicidal.
He turned to marijuana. He bought from black market dealers in Iowa, but fearing arrest, he moved to Colorado last year in order to purchase legally prescribed doses from dispensaries. He realized marijuana just masked the symptoms.
“With the availability of it, it gets you away from not really coping,” Edwards said. “You can stay medicated all the time and not really face it. It’s much easier to do that than work at the issues causing you to use cannabis.”
He moved back to Iowa three months ago, although he says his stay is temporary. Meanwhile, he’s staying away from marijuana and alcohol and dealing with PTSD head on.
“I’m using my coping skills again,” he said. “I have rough periods that suck, but it’s comforting to know it won’t last forever. I can move back to Denver.”
He’s become a dual resident of both states. He’s renting two apartments, one in Davenport and one in Denver. It’s an arrangement not unlike his military career that had him leave home for months to a year at a time. He’s able to support himself with temporary construction jobs whenever he’s in the Quad-Cities and trimming marijuana plants in Denver.
He’s also got visitation set up with his 4-year-old daughter in the Quad-Cities, another reason he wants to keep his Davenport home to return to periodically.
“Sounds crazy at first, but it’s worked out for me,” Edwards said. “It’s morphed into a good situation. In some ways, my relationship with my daughter is better.”
He dealt with anxiety about attending a recent Christmas party not with drugs or alcohol but by forcing himself to go.
“I put myself in a stressful environment and proved something to myself,” he said. “I can relearn without cannabis.”